Well...I don't know the answer to this question. I was just reading back through all of my "sent" emails and they went back to my senior year of high school. Senior year I loved everything. I felt safe in high school. I was responsible. I took care of my work.
And now....well...where did things go wrong?
I know in my last post I wrote about how much I love college and how much I love my friends...but things have changed so much.
Now...I can't wait for this semester to be over. I can't wait to be finished so I never have to go back there. I wish that I was responsible again. I can't wait until I find another job because I can't stand this one anymore. I wish that I cared more about everything I do. Why don't I feel like that anymore? Maybe I get bored with things too quickly now. But when will I stop getting bored with everything? When will I start feeling like life is exactly where it's supposed to be? When did I turn into this lazy, irresponsible, unmotivated, angry, confused person? I really don't understand. I thought that college was supposed to be about positive changes in your life...not negative ones.
I just wish it wasn't like this.
I just want that girl from senior year back....
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